Day 13

Your sweet, sweet heart:

For some of us, it’s one of the easiest places to get in touch with the chakra system. We feel a LOT in our upper torso.

For some of us, it’s the hardest place to feel, because we feel so much we turn it off.

That was me for awhile. I was a highly sensitive child, and I didn’t have any tools for how to live in a difficult world feeling everything that everyone else was feeling all the time. So I had to turn it off. It was a matter of survival.

It’s sort of like when the body goes into shock when you break a limb. You experience the first jolt of pain and your brain is like, THIS IS TOO MUCH TURN IT OFF TURN IT OFF!!

Your clever brain floods your body with hormones designed to turn off your pain receptors. It’s a survival mechanism; you can keep running away from an attack if you can’t feel pain.

The problem is, it turns into depression. It’s not like you can just turn off the hard stuff. You have to turn off ALL of it.

Sometimes, you end up hurting yourself worse refusing to feel it than if you have just experienced it in real time.

Eventually, you have to feel it.

Eventually, you have to heal it.

So too with heartbreak.

Anything can break your heart.

Could be a loss:

a relationship ending;

the passing of a loved one.

Could be a disappointment:

something you really wanted and thought you deserved;

a promise somebody didn’t keep.

Could be something beautiful:

a sunrise;

your child’s first steps.

That breaks your heart wide open.

We think of it as an experience to avoid.

But that’s the whole point:

You break open the shells around your truest self every time you break your heart.

You expose your highest essence every time you shed tears over that overwhelming sense of emotion.

But it’s hard. It can feel painful. We don’t call it a break for nothing.

The trick is to reorganize your brain’s response to pain.

Not to shut it off like your survival depends on it.

But to focus on it with such ferocious intensity that, after the dust settles, you’re able to see that shimmering light of your highest self.

You will break your heart as many times as you need to do get to that point.

Or you can skip all that and live in loving kindness.

Let’s figure out how to do that:

Hooray! I’ve got a few things to say about your heart.

Sweet! Here’s an active, sexy heart opening sequence for you.

Glorious! We’re gonna do some chopping.

 Keep in touch, y’all!